clean dishes in the washer dirty sit on the sink next to a bag of recyclables an empty bottle of wine a diaper needs changing three cats need fed a tiny plastic cow guards the bathroom couch pillows lie discarded on the floor crumbs gather on the carpet under the baby’s seat small puddles of […]
ever want to smash something perfect to see it break for the sake of excitement we dynamite the beautiful to feel foreign fingers and the chemicals in between we risk a destructive shortcut to something we all need adrenaline and the creativity it ignites
she never taught me how not to give myself away she couldn’t have even if she wanted that was a skill she did not possess I can see that now I will teach them not to fall for the first man who sees them to keep their power and in quiet moments ensure it’s growth […]
I peel away scabs soon as they form watching the blood bead and fall pouring over the letters I still can’t make them out of course this is about me of course I don’t run his show and fuck you for saying so aren’t you tired of lashing out stings and burns blisters and scars […]
I think much of letting go some things are easier than others letting go of pain: easy (with practice) letting go of things: easy (with practice) of all that no longer serves me now how to let go of things we want kept when those things want to walk away same as the others I […]
not alone but left behind flock scattered but a few the quiet one didn’t ask the others to stay (now they are all “others”) They didn’t ask anything she has the only voice now the birds flock they forget but a few I’m fairly certain birds don’t cry I only cry in dreams and rainy […]
integrity to remain true to yourself when there are no mirrors left cycles of betrayal no room for misunderstanding unnecessary explanations distrust broken no more no more I don’t remember how life before them before her exhausted I’ll figure it out.